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ALL I WANTED WAS FOR YOU TO CARE


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THE BITCH

| Jessica |
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| shopaholic |
| loudhailer |
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WISHFULTHINKING

| shower me with coach hunny and serenade a love song to me|

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|vann|
|aretha|
|evande|
|fee|
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|marianne|
|tracy|
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|melanie|
|clair|
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|jac|
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|trey|


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| money |
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sch's fun with them around


my leading ladies (:


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Friday, June 30, 2006

5:45 AM

sigh i hate parents.parents are one of the most irritating creatures to ever walk the planet.their screams,their nags which just drive you utterly crazy and soon a scream fight will just start and then a cold war will continue.now that is what i call stupidity.i feel that parents should learn how to keep their trap shut and only speak at the appropriate times.yupp that way there can finally be world peace and everyone will be happy people.owells soccer later,my new motive in life is to act like i'm one big soccer fanatic who just goes crazy once a goal is scored yea but still i only support CERTAIN groups.sigh i totally thought that england vs portugal will be one later tonight but sigh it is on tomorrow.i so cannot wait to see england get thrashed,that would be the sweetest thing.ok sorry that i'm just totally bias against england.well used to like them till i noticed that they cannot play soccer for nuts,yupp we need quality soccer in this world and not just a bunch of metrosexuals runnning around the field like a bunch of retards chasing after a ball.yupp take the samba boys for example,LOVE them they really do know their thing not only can they control the ball well their attacking skills,their fabulous defence and not only that they can jump.yes indeed jumping is good,they help you to get from one point to another quickly with not a second wasted.anyway back to my main topic for the day.goodness why in the world are all parents the same?first they will act as though they are just so involved in your life that you find out that they have most of your friends numbers however they managed to get them.next they will talk to you about your friends and make it seem as though they have known your friends for ages and after that one minute later that will suddenly turn back against what they said and start telling you that your friends are bad influences and that you should not mix with them at all because they think you should not mix with as they would say SUCH people.i mean seriously are you trying to insult my friends in front of me?as seriously i want to know what exactly do you mean by SUCH people?i mean what is with the SUCH?next thing why in the world do they always have to threaten you?by saying if you dont do blah i am going to call your tutor and say that you want to call off tuition as you think you are just simply too good to even want to attend classes.i mean hello?i was the one who wanted those tuitions in the first place so why all of a sudden you just want to act like the fucking good guy and start praising the butts off my tutors when just a few days ago you question their worth?isnt that just rather ironic.that is why parents will NEVER make good friends as notice the trend they have practically stabbed everyone in the back.tsk that aint what friends are for though.that is why i have learnt my lesson and that is why i do not trust my parents at all.i do not tell them anything that goes on in my life otherwise that same faithful incident would happen again.now did i mention BITCH!!!what a whore.owells that's just another one of my theories i guess.anyway i think my new lifestyle is working.i am so starting to love the new me.well my teacher called me up for a little so called heart to heart teacher student bonding.like what the hell since when was there ever such a thing.well she said that i am calm.hmmm so is that supposed to be a good thing or is she trying to hint that i am not working hard enough for my os.owells out of point but she insists that i need to put in at least four hours a day into my studies.gosh did i say that that is the motherLOAD of hours?that is insane considering the fact that i only have an attention span of one hour yeah i know i'm a sucker when it comes to studying sorry but ya that's just my brain absorption capacity.but still i feel such a great sense of satisfation today.i did quite a number of work.let's see i completed one whole entire math prelim paper,i revised two chapters of chemistry and did some mcq questions.hey mcq is still work ok so just shut your trap and let me gloat abit more.well and i went through manufacturing for geography too.yeah all in a day's work see that is not too bad right and come to think of it this is the first time in which i have ever accomplished that much too.must have been the so called wake up talk i guess.yea my teacher is going to be so proud of me.owells i might not be having tuition tomorrow,or so that is what my tutor called to tell me.she said she's going to watch soccer tonight and thus doubts she can wake up on time.goodness that's the first time in which i am actually hearing such from my tutor.ahhh now that is what i call new age baby.man i so cant wait for the show the fast and the furious tokyo drift to come out that is so going to be one helluva show.talk about the need for speed man now we're drifting.i like fast cars but i love fast cars with hot boys more.that is just totally sexy and they compliment each other well too.woots.owells going off for my soccer match soon.damn why in the world do they have such a dress code like no slippers allowed,no shorts allowed and you must dress DECENTLY.man i can so see my poly record getting longer next year.crap but i'm still going to wear my dear running shorts later.slippers?hmmm we shall see bout that again,i wonder will the help of a little plaster do the trick?as i just think shorts with shoes just look kinda wrong.the word SLACK just is not there and that is what makes it lovely.ahhh i feel lazy today and crap i'm going to miss sports illustrated later.i think that girl is hot and she's going to win the shit.HAHA.o and yea there's going to be a party at devils bar on the 8th of july.yupp anyone interested?it's by lifestyle bash.HAHA.how nice i'm helping them spread the word.HAHA.as damn it's going to be hot as the world cup fight for thrid place is going to be on that night too.soccer plus beer and company equals LOVE.

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

11:49 PM

well yet another crappy day in school.with all the teachers barking orders straight into your eyes,the seemingly never ending pile of homework which just gets more and more each day and the crazy chattering among people.i think i am living in a whole new era where i think peace and quietness rule.gosh i seem to be like a thirty year old woman trapped in a sixteen year old body which is totally nuts.this crazy new lease of life thing which i am trying out seem to be back firing now.crap please dont let this happen.i think school is bad and school is for suckers.school kills creativity,the control you so much that they always seem to be shaping us all the time,making us endless copies of each other.notice that when you walk down any regular corridor in my school everyone is the same.we have the same thinkings,same ideologies,same way we talk,same slangs and same habits.thus we all seem to be like clones just that we have different faces.to me school is a place where forceful propaganda begins.they teach you stuff about singapore that is not true which in turn makes us wanna become better singaporeans so we can have social cohesion and promote world peace.we will all just sit together and write national day songs trying hard to tell ourselves that together we can make a difference.jeepers i think we are all becoming clones.today we got this orange colour envelope for some youth day charity thing and to my horror i see that singapore idol's guy's face on it with the word together we can make a difference i mean what year are we living in now like 2006?isnt he like just so passe.we want new blood.i mean like kumar said and i quote in american idol when you win you become a millionaire but in singapore idol when you win you just become the spokesperson for seven eleven.but isnt that true.singapore idol is just but a gimmick for the television company to make easy money through those gullible folks who just call and call and call.those contestants cant exaclty sing well.well maybe only one or two actually has the potential but the rest they are all just living a lie.i feel that nowadays singapore has just became too hung up over this whole crazy idol saga.i mean do we actually need to be surrounded by idols that badly that you have to come up with an overly crazy number of idol search programmes on all.but hey dont you actually think that this is becoming a little overboard and should i say passe?i mean why cant singapore just be original for once and come up with something that no one else has done.only that way then we can truly call ourselves original.well the world cup saga has became quite quiet recently,well probably that's because there has not been any matches going on for the past few days.but owells tomorrow,germany vs argentina.i really want argentina to kick germany's butt in the comp.we seriously need to watch some new blood kicking the ball around.not to mention that i want england out of the competition like now!immediately!england cant play quality soccer for nuts.i really do hope that the portuguese will really give them a tremendous wake up call.now that would be something to look forward to.i think the italy vs ukraine match is going to be a total waste of time as the odds are very straight forward and clear.brazil,ah well i'm sure my samba boys will not have any trouble taking on france.i HOPE as they are clearly a league above them.owells hopefully a brazil vs argentina finals.now that would be what i would call a match to die for and last but not least naturally the brazilians will be take to bring it all straight home.now that is definitely what i would call quality soccer that is definitely worth watching out for.take it all back home brazil!

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


1:55 AM

goodness i think i am addicted to blogging o gosh what the hell is wrong with me.i just somehow caught the blogging spell.it is actually quite refreshing somehow.makes me realise and reflect on my lifestyle and my day better.gee i think i'm on my way to becoming a better person already.woots.well i'm starting to hate a certain someone.god knows why as she is starting to irritate me with her laziness and all the crap it seems to be that she is becoming more of a parasite than a friend.k i know i so should not be thinking about such stuff as i am a supposed friend but damn i am really getting sick and tired of this shit so ya woman back off before i really lose my cool this time as things will really get nasty and trust me i mean it this time.so ya shoo.maybe the best thing in life is to become a nerd and just live off the corner of the class with a book underneath my nose.that way i'll be smart and i'll score good grades.i wont have friendship problems and i wont go around threatening to kill people and rip their skin apart and do any other crazy things to them.yupp that way life would be pleasant and everyone would be happy inclusive of me.but seriously.i'm going crazy over this person so ya i really need some time off so i can cool off from her.yes someone please take her away from me NOW!! i need to go into isolation.owells i really pity him now.his birthday is tomorrow yet he has to head down to the police station to settle his case.now that is really sad as his entire birthday would be ruined by the cops themselves.poor thing.alrights then i shall help you celebrate it sometime soon i hope and your spike is still with me so yea guess we need to meet up soon ya.i miss going out with the same old gang during the holidays it was just what i call pure simple joy as we somehow just got so contented with each other that everything just seemed so fun and perfect.how i wish i could turn back the clock and go back to where it once was.i miss those days now and come to think of it those times only happened like what a few weeks back yet here i am wailing wanted to turn back time.does this prove how lovely those times were.it really amazes me on how much time and change everything.i only got to know them better only this year and yet here we are and we had one of the most genuine fun times ever so far.the drinking,the clubbing,the checking out of people,the kisses and all the crazy other things.not isnt that what you call fun?and not just like how some of my school friends and i go about trying to satisfy each other and end up getting into some kind of fight or something.i miss that carefree lifestyle.i want it back.maybe if we can relive each day of our lives we would one day manage to just live it right and there can finally be an end to the crazy sufferings of this world.i wonder would that day ever come as i really wish that day was today.i really need to isolate myself from this world and just shut myself in total darkness.i shall devote my time now to studying.i still want that study date girl.meet up soon.i shall now that pleasure in studying,making my time worthwhile,get into the course which i want and finally get out of this crazy thing which i have going on now.hope that would help and for once bring peace into my lifestyle.

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


12:57 AM

my first unofficial day of school.not rather productive but passable.firstly everyone thought i faked my illness but then again listen up man it is real i have a 2day mc to prove it man.please cant you guys actually tell from my voice.yupp i know rina thinks it's sexy like so what the hell man.it sounds seriously gross.such a turn-off.well new physics teacher and she is effing good she offered me extra lessons how sweet out of which i shall reconsider.yupp shall plan out the questions to ask her first.now the ava is filled with like four camera.think the teachers are totally paranoid about the vandalising and all.but hey vandalism is art and art is beautiful.isnt it all about free expression and learning through experience?so how what ever happened to that man?i demand for the cameras to be removed immediately.well and what better way to ever end the day by having to do not one but two essays.one chinese and one english.thank god i managed to finish writing both of them by the dateline.but damn i just dont seem to have the inspiration to write anything today.must be the medication which has just burnt a hole in my brain.tsk this is bad.i have a new craze for japanese techno music mixed with a twist of japanese hiphop.trust me it is just so awesome that it will keep you grooving to the tune for what i can call ages.not only that latin music is sexy.yupp my latest theory is that it is great music to have sex to.yupp no idea how did that theory come about but it just seems so sexy and mysterious.i like.yum!omg i so didnt say that.anyway this round the tennis pictures are really nice.uber nice.much nicer than last year.but pity this time he was not in the picture so we cant exactly say that it is complete as our head teacher is not in it.but yea anyway the picture is still rockin.o and did i mention that our class fun shots are the bomb.yupp totally nice 4/6 presents a day of the beach.not too bad for a last minute preparation for the fun shot.but i still think i dont look good in the formal shot.but owells it isnt say that bad in a sense.our last year together how sad.i'm so going to miss all the memories of the times both good and bad.the quarrels, bitchfights, gossip, love and so much more.foursix is total ownage and everyone knows that.love our sexy only orange t-shirt.this is definitely one class that will remain forever close to my heart.

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

12:09 AM

ok just decided to blog before going to do my homework.well holiday homework which is technically over.owells i finally changed my blogskin.yupp done by yours truly.i think it is gorgeous.yupp nuff said.english homework is just so tedious.it's nuts and like she is going to read through each of our articles and all.more like just skim through to make sure that it is done then all she needs to do is to just put a tick and date it and consider it marked.yupp so much for our hard work and so on.but damn i think some teachers are really very lazy.no offence i'm just referring to a certain hand full.yupp.other than that the other teachers i know are pretty much on the go.i just noticed during lunch that i have an extremely low tolerance level for anything salty.salty food totally makes my throat dry and then a nauseous feeling will form within my stomach.gosh.that feeling totally sucks.alright going to have drama before physics tuition tomorrow.talk about having a heavy bag.i'm going to have to lug like 20 pounds wherever i go tomorrow.man i so do wish dad would be there to transport me from one place to another.that is what i call hassle free man.owells sinead is back from seattle- the place where starbucks coffee first orginated from.now that is effing cool.life is totally meaningless without a cuppa nice yummy coffee.right i'm like so lagging behind in my studies right now.having been missing about 5 days of school or perhaps more if i really do count the nitty gritty of the school holidays.owells heard that we've got a new physics teacher and that she is better than our previous one.happiness i hope that means our record with her has gone down the drain too.as damn seriously i do not want to do any more detention for the rest of this year.that's damn straight baby.i need intensive revision soon.but i'm just lazy.does anyone actually have a cure for laziness as damn i think i'll need like a life time supply of such a drug.

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Monday, June 26, 2006

9:13 PM

auguries of innocence by william blake

To see a world in a grain of sand.And a heaven in a wild flower,Hold infinity in the palm of your hand.And eternity in an hour.A robin redbreast in a cage.Puts all heaven in a rage.A dove-house filled with doves and pigeons.Shudders hell through all its regions.A dog starved at his master's gate,Predicts the ruin of the state.A horse misused upon the road.Calls to heaven for human blood.Each outcry of the hunted hare,A fibre from the brain does tear.A skylark wounded in the wing,A cherubim does cease to sing.The game-cock clipped and armed for fight.Does the rising sun affright.Every wolf's and lion's howl.Raises from hell a human soul.The wild deer wandering here and there.Keeps the human soul from care.The lamb misused breeds public strife,And yet forgives the butcher's knife.The bat that flits at close of eve.Has left the brain that won't believe.The owl that calls upon the night.Speaks the unbeliever's fright.He who shall hurt the little wren.Shall never be beloved by men.He who the ox to wrath has moved.Shall never be by woman loved.The wanton boy that kills the fly.Shall feel the spider's enmity.He who torments the chafer's sprite.Weaves a bower in endless night.The caterpillar on the leaf.Repeats to thee thy mother's grief.Kill not the moth nor butterfly,For the Last Judgment draweth nigh.He who shall train the horse to war.Shall never pass the polar bar.The beggar's dog and widow's cat,Feed them, and thou wilt grow fat.The gnat that sings his summer's songPoison gets from Slander's tongue.The poison of the snake and newt.Is the sweat of Envy's foot.The poison of the honey-beeIs the artist's jealousy.The prince's robes and beggar's rags.Are toadstools on the miser's bags.A truth that's told with bad intent.Beats all the lies you can invent.It is right it should be so:Man was made for joy and woe;And when this we rightly know.Through the world we safely go.Joy and woe are woven fine,A clothing for the soul divine.Under every grief and pine.Runs a joy with silken twine.The babe is more than swaddling bands,Throughout all these human lands;Tools were made and born were hands,Every farmer understands.Every tear from every eye.Becomes a babe in eternity;This is caught by females bright.And returned to its own delight.The bleat, the bark, bellow, and roar.Are waves that beat on heaven's shore.The babe that weeps the rod beneath.Writes Revenge! in realms of death.The beggar's rags fluttering in air.Does to rags the heavens tear.The soldier armed with sword and gun.Palsied strikes the summer's sun.The poor man's farthing is worth more.Than all the gold on Afric's shore.One mite wrung from the labourer's hands.Shall buy and sell the miser's lands,Or if protected from on highDoes that whole nation sell and buy.He who mocks the infant's faith.Shall be mocked in age and death.He who shall teach the child to doubt.The rotting grave shall ne'er get out.He who respects the infant's faith.Triumphs over hell and death.The child's toys and the old man's reasons.Are the fruits of the two seasons.The questioner who sits so sly.Shall never know how to reply.He who replies to words of doubt.Doth put the light of knowledge out.The strongest poison ever known.Came from Caesar's laurel crown.Nought can deform the human race.Like to the armour's iron brace.When gold and gems adorn the plough.To peaceful arts shall Envy bow.A riddle or the cricket's cry.Is to doubt a fit reply.The emmet's inch and eagle's mile.Make lame philosophy to smile.He who doubts from what he seesWill ne'er believe, do what you please.If the sun and moon should doubt,They'd immediately go out.To be in a passion you good may do,But no good if a passion is in you.The whore and gambler, by the stateLicensed, build that nation's fate.The harlot's cry from street to street.Shall weave old England's winding sheet.The winner's shout, the loser's curse,Dance before dead England's hearse.Every night and every mornSome to misery are born.Every morn and every night.Some are born to sweet delight.Some are born to sweet delight,Some are born to endless night.We are led to believe a lie.When we see not through the eye.Which was born in a night to perish in a night,When the soul slept in beams of light.God appears, and God is lightTo those poor souls who dwell in night,But does a human form display.To those who dwell in realms of day.


Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


8:30 PM

my last day of my mc.which indirectly it is also my last day to complete my never-ending pile of homework.from what i heard from the rest now school ends at like 2:15 everyday except monday which is not too bad.at least the teachers were thoughtful enough to factor the monday blues into our timetable.though sadly i think i have the blues every single waking hour of my life.well can they factor that in too?owells chinese oral is on the 4th of july.crap.just when i lost my voice here comes one of the most important orals of my life.i hope i can dictate properly as i think i have sort of forgotten how to articulate those chinese words properly.but owells i shall still try my absolute best.am so NEVER going to let that scene repeat again.now that's what i call really bad man.anyways i just realised why madonna is one of the greatest stars in the world.you should not listen to her latest tracks but instead chill out to those of hers during the early 90s and the 80s.o my they are just so awesome that they will just blow your brains out.like right now after listening to those tracks i think i am totally hooked onto her.o i was talking to sasha yesterday.i miss that girl man.let's just say we are to talk and discuss about issues as freely as possible as we are god sisters and there should not be anything between us.how sweet.she is going to bring me clubbing in england.ooochiwawa.and please she's younger than me but damn she's one helluva party animal.damn i really cant wait for the year end.england here i come.let's just paint the whole town red.though in my opinion england still does not play quality football.yupp sorry alex but that is my honest opinion.HAHA.portugal's into the quarters and damn holland's out.BRAZILL!!!!

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, June 25, 2006

9:56 PM

for the record i've been sick for like what the hell 6 days and somehow i just dont seem to be getting any better.so much for the medicines man.but at least that means one more day for me to complete my homework so that is rather ok i guess.but damn that is like some helluva homework.imagine 5 math worksheets of both paper 1 and 2, some english worksheet which i dont even understand what must we do and some social thing which i cannot even log on to view the homework.talk about technology aint it like supposed to be rather advanced by now?but seriously i think the leads account is what i can call a total waste of money as i mean who in the world would actually open their account and make use of the stuff inside?no one man.someone should tell the school about this man.sigh this is fucking depressing prelims are in like 2 months time.which in other words prelims are in like 8 weeks time!!!that is just simply to fast.sometimes i really do wonder whether would i ever actually be prepared for the big os which is yet to come.sigh sometimes such a great jump in life can totally intimidate me.or perhaps i'm just not ready to take the responsibility which will be so in your face once i leave secondary school for the poly life.talk about independent living.i sure do hope that everything would be perfect by than man.crap i seriously hate studying man.it just gets me all worked up over nothing.which sucks!well chinglu is in LA now.how awesome and how i wish im there right now too.talk about shopping man.alright i know my shopping needs are just insatiable.well finally the top 16's here.it's like FINALLY quality soccer time.i still want a spain vs brazil finals and i want brazil to just bring it all home.they are just not up to standard YET.cmon guys wake up and smell the brazilian coffee.anyway to everyone out there STOP criticising ronaldo.yes we know he might have gained weight but he's classic man and no one can ever top him.alrighties off to do some work now.GO BRAZIL!

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Thursday, June 22, 2006

6:47 PM

im still sick.omg this so sucks now.my throat hurts and worst still it burns,i'm coughing like a chimney pot,i'm currently having a temperature of 39.4C,i'm down with a bloody cold,my muscles hurts and my chest hurts like fuck whenever i swallow.somebody please tell me that i am not dying.just that sentence would totally make my day.i'm looking for some nice new picture for my blog.emo or something pure funky?sigh i'm still choosing.there is still so much homework left to do.and obviously i so do not intend to complete them it is just too insane to actually do them.lets see i've 5 maths papers left to do,english and social out of which i just cannot open the file.not to mention once school starts i think i might end up having to go and see the dm because of that faithful day when we decided to pone class and ended up getting caught not just who was that person who told on us again?well one things for sure and that is that person so sucks.HAHA.sucker.i dont wanna do anymore detention in a sense.in my opinion detention's an utter waste of time all you do is just simply sit there and do the no brainer copying of the school virtues.i mean honestly i bet even a 5year old kid can do that without much assistance or any sort.o my does that mean that they are implying that we have a mentality of a kid?gosh now that is just so so so bad man.well yupp it is official there is going to be a zouk out styled party during august or september at siloso beach and 10,000 tickets will be printed solely for that event.omg can you just imagine how totally jam-packed the place would be?but hey thank god for such a thing called guestlists and vips.HAHA.but sigh i dont think i'm going to be running for this party.sigh what to do as it'll be during the prelims period.sigh i'm really starting to hate the big os man.it's just so pressurising.well so gotta prepare for more insane work load to come i mean seriously as with a school like that since when has there ever been such a thing as sufficient homework.sigh how i'm totally starting to think that this sucks.owells i'm gonna go back to sleep again.HAHA.so longs

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


12:13 AM

the after effect of clubbing brings about a hangover which might lead to puking and like in my case a bout of fever.damn i've totally learnt my lesson no more back to back clubbing and next time i shall totally learn to drink in moderation.how nice i'm down with a temperature of 39.5 C that is insane i know.from what the doctor said the puking is brought about from my food poisoning,the fever from my throat inflammation and the nausea feeling due to a bloated stomach.fuck this totally sucks.and to make things worst i just feel totally lazy to just pick up my book and start doing my homework.sigh what is wrong with me man.i'm just in no mood for practically anything.this is so bad.well waited for like 2 fucking hours for carlos to arrive and to pass me my $290.anyway will someone please tell nikhil that i WANT him to absorb at least $45.yes and that is a must.that is a thanks to him for taking so god damned long and for hogging my tickets.anyway i finally got my pedicure.it is what i can call lovely.yellow with the brazilian flag on each of the big toes.now did i say joga bonito?yea babyy it is just awesome.well mom did not allow me to pre-order my jeans as she said that limited ed jeans turn passe very easily and she would rather me just buy one that is more wearable.wanted to get a pair of blue cult.ok i love the colour,love the texture but damn i did not like the cut.sigh pity as it was selling off quite cheap.HAHA.owells.cant help it if i'm a denim whore.sigh why is everyone falling sick now and not when school has started.i need a tan desperately but sadly there aint no sunshine recently.everyone prepare of the unexpected folks.brace yourselves

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

1:37 AM

how awesome the holidays are ending just when the fun is just about to start damn that is just such a spoiler man.so fucked up as the teachers took away 2weeks of our lovely hols and now that want us back in school.this is totally outrageous i protest!!you heard me you cant make me go back to that hell house as i am so NOT going back.cmon guys lets all not go to school together and we can just watch the teachers go to school and wonder out loud where the hell have the students go.or better still anyone up to try my curry chicken skills.yupp it certainly does wonders to the stomach in a very subjective way that is if you actually get what i mean.tsk.i repeat i do not want to go back there.owells this is the ultimate i'm hungry but i cannot eat.eating makes me fat and being fat is bad.ahhh i cant eat man o gosh i'm practically drooling at the mouth at the thought of food now but shite i promised myself that i am on a diet and i just cannot possibly go back on it again.scale tipper.goodness now that is what i call really really bad.finally made my much awaited appointment to do my nails.they are in total desperate need for some tlc.have not done a pedicure for like 120495485025 years and i think my nails totally deserve it now damn or should i say i totally deserve some pampering now.great this is so fucking stupid man.why cant anyone actually confirm their tickets.what's with the eh wait let me check again or wait and i will get back to you.dont they know such a word called now now now!!!yes sorry but im more of a now than a later person.that's why sorry folks but you just cant blame me if i'm impatient as that is just so me.im totally lacking on clothes i need to shop again desperately.and yes jessica finally has money though in my opinion there is never such a thing as enough money but yea.i wanna buy new jeans though technically i still have yet to wear my latest pair but damn who can ever have enough jeans in the world so yea jess needs new jeans desperately.sigh why in the world does every one tell me im a shopaholic.well for your infomation i am so not one.well let's just put it this way.i am just simply a person who knows how to indulge in speed shopping and crazy shopping sprees yes now that sound so much better.

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


1:21 AM

1) Who will be the first in your class to get married?vanessa =)
2) Who will be the first in your class to have kids?fiona?
3) Who will be the first in your class to earn a million dollars?me!!!!!!!!
4) Who will be the first in your class to get their own house?claire?
5) Who will be the first in your class to get their own car?rina
6) Who will be the first in your class to die?no idea
7) Who in your class is most likely to get a recording contract?TRIXIA
8) Who in your class is most likely to become a model?RINA!melanie!
9) Who in your class is most likely to become a TV star?gissy,berlyn
10) Who in your class is most likely to become a magazine reporter?rina
11) Who in your class is most likely to form a band?trixia,paan,yuxin
12) Who in your class is most likely to die of anorexia?none
13) Who in your class is most likely to do something illegal?i dunno
14) Who in your class is most likely to migrate?carolyn?
15) Who in your class will most likely become a sports star?lizzie or paaan
16) Who in your class will most likely be someone horribly famous?me!
17) Who in your class is most likely to become the next Paris Hilton?meaning the sex video?
18) Who in your class is most likely to become a failure in life?no one.
19) Who in your class is most likely to travel around the world in 80 days?huiyee
20) Who in your class is most likely to get plastic surgery?HAAAAAAHHHHHHAAAA
21) Who in your class is most likely to have the most kids?vanessa she looks motherly
22) Who in your class is most likely to become a German?no idea man
23) Who in your class is most likely to kill a great number of people at one single time?gwen i can see that coming
24) Who in your class is most likely to commit suicide?...
25) Who in your class is most likely to become desperate by the age of 30?all of us!!
26) Who in your class is most likely to own a farm?gissy?
27) Who in your class is most likely to turn bisexual?errrs
28) Who in your class is most likely to go into politics?ghislaine
29) Who in your class is most likely to become a philosopher of some sort?amanda
30) Who in your class are you most likely to marry?lalaaa
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Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


1:08 AM

The rules: Bold the statements that are true to you. Italise the statements that you WISH are true. Leave the Fibs alone. Then, stab 5 people to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now.

I dont watch TV these days.

I wear glasses or contact lenses.

I love to play video games.

I've tried marijuana.

I have been in a threesome.

I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship

I believe honesty is usually the best policy.

I curse sometimes.

I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.

I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

I'm TOTALLY smart.

I've broken someone's bones.

I'm paranoid sometimes.

I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.

I need money right now.

I love sushi

I talk really,really fast.

I have long hair.

I have lost money in Las Vegas.

I have at least one sibling.

I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.

I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.

I like the way i look.

I am usually pessimistic.

I have a lot of mood swings.

I have a hidden talent.

I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.

I have a lot of friends.

I am currently single.

I have pecked someone of the same sex -FRIEND!!!

I enjoy talking on the phone.

I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.

I love to shop.

Enjoy window shopping.

I would rather shop then eat.

I don't hate anyone.

I'm a pretty good dancer.

I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother

I have a cell phone.

I believe in God.

I watch MTV on a daily basis.

I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months

I've rejected someone before.

I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.

I want to have children in the future.

I have changed a diaper before

I've called the cops on a friend before.

I'm not allergic to anything.

I have a lot to learn.

I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.

I am shy around the opposite sex.

I have tried alcohol before.

I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past

I own the "South Park" movie.

I would die for my best friends.

I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.

I have used my sexuality to advance my career.

I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.

Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.

I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.

I am happy at this moment!

I'm obsessed with guys.

I study for tests most of the time.

I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.

I am comfortable with who I am right now.

I have more than just my ears pierced.

I walk barefoot wherever i can

I have jumped off a bridge

I love sea turtles.

I spend ridiculous money on makeup.

Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.

I'm proficient in a musical instrument.

I worked at McDonald's restaurant.

I hate office jobs.

I love sci-fi movies.

I think water rules.

I went college out of state.

I like sausages.

I love kisses.

I fall for the worst people.

I adore bright colours.

I can't live without black eyeliner.

I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.

I usually like covers better than originals.

I can pick up things with my toes.

I can't whistle.

I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.

I have ridden/owned a horse.

I still have every journal I've ever written in.

I can't stick to a diet.

I talk in my sleep.

I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions

Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.

I have jazz in my blood.

I wear a toe ring.

I have a tattoo

I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.

I am a caffeine junkie.

I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.

I have been to over 15 conventions.

I will collect anything, and the more nonsesical the better

I'm an artist.

I only clean my room when necessary.

I like a person of the same sex

I love being happy.

I am an adrenaline junkie


Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Monday, June 19, 2006

8:35 PM

korean tourists are super cute.saw them on the trishaw and they were all like"teh hamingo!!"so cute.sigh have not been watching soccer for ages and yesterday's matches were all not say that nice.i want to watch the final 16 like NOW please.joga bonita!brazil is still the shit but spain is definitely not one team to mess around with as so far they are total ownage.how awesome imagine if it is a brazil vs spain finals.uber nice?DEFINITELY.that would so be what i would call awesomeness!leon's party on tonight.hmmm i wonder will there be soccer?but there is no nice matches today.owells gonna help winson out so yea anyone interested in vertigo 2 @ dxo tmr?

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, June 18, 2006

10:35 PM

omg yesterday was what i can call embarrassing?HAHA.but what to do we were all just simply wasted.damn i still cant believe what happened yesterday.first i got busted by alex and had to take part in some comp thingy in front of the motherLOAD of people.before that i had to calm my nerves by taking vodka shots which i just realised i took 7 shots in 10mins.which is bad.then did a really shitty job in the comp thingy esp during the dirty dancing segment.sorry as what can i say i was already so stressed up with that asshole and my phone just kept ringing.but blast my face was so red that everyone kept asking me jess did you drink and are you like drunk now?retardation la.next we headed to the dancefloor but i could not feel my vodka kick and danielle was not happy cause she was not high so we went to a nearby bar and i drank some really strong lychee martini while she took 2 vodka mixes one of which was really sweet and we shared another one with teq,vodka,triple sec with dan.and boy did we get high that we almost forgot where was mos.repeat we were high and not drunk.but please dont even think about asking about what we did yesterday.HAHA.yesterday's dj was bad.and o my vaunt's dj was hamali's dad!!and trust me he was just so simply awesome.how i wish it was him spinning yesterday.that would have been my idea of perfect.loserish cheney,josiah could not get into mos yesterday.they all got bounced out.HAHA.suckers.saw theodore there was so shocked to see that bum out of his house.HAHA.heard that zouk sucked yesterday.HAHA.and we so know why.retardation.but mos was not too bad in a sense.but poor things for those who needed to absorb tickets.i hate steven so please do not ever let me see or talk to him again.thanks for making my yesterday a living hell man sucker.but at least thank god after what seemed to be like a thousand years he finally transferred my $360 into jingwen's account.next up i've got momo to clear.boy now that so sucks.no more clubbing for me until os are over.but damn i sure wanna go for mambo night this wed.HAHA.shaun owes people $1900 i think that is totally crazy and now he's borrowing money from me.i'm not that rich my dear.HAHA.well but for now.who wants to go for smoove @ club momo tomorrow???

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

12:11 AM

omg i'm so fucking dead right now.thanks to my sellers.all totally screwed me this time and now i'm left with like the motherLOAD of snow tickets left to clear.now this is what i call fucking irritating.i'm screwed.thanks for the GREAT help.gosh please next time ONLY take those which you can sell.ahhh this is so getting on my nerves.so a shoutout to all you hoochies out there who wanna go for snow.get your tickets from me like this instance.i'm totally selling them off cheap now!well lets talk about yesterday.i finally got my jeans!like after so long i finally got them.but kinda got shit from my parents because of the price.$399 but totally worth every single cent!uber nice?DEFINITELY.yea babyy more jeans yet to come.latest fashion addiction JEANS.though technically i already have like a truckload of jeans.went dxo on monday with alex,devan,this guy,supposed danielle and her friend,yunxuan and jeremy and met up with maria and the guys there.yupp that's what i call uber fun though technically the earlier band performances suck but the dancing and all was really fun.danced all night.met up with xijie and his friends there and boy they sure do drink ALOT of beer man.anyway how sad daddy does not allow me to go for butterfactory.i need some shots in my system NOW!!

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Thursday, June 08, 2006

9:21 PM

went to watch the omen last night with danielle, her bf, alex and these 2 crazy guys who were laughing like fuck at me.like seriously SHUTUP man dont be evil.HAHA.reached there fashionably late as usual.HAHA.but this time is was not that bad right guys i was only half an hour late.but what the hell.retarded people trying to sell off on the streets.i wonder why no one bought and damn that's so sad i missed the tall guy.i wanna see him man and you guys didnt take a picture of him for me.could he really touch the traffic light thing?HAHA.i wanna see him man.that'll be like effing cool.the omen was just averagish the nun was much scarier though it was much more predictable.but the omen really can shock the hell outta you.so much so that i smashed into my friend like how many times.HAHA.retardation.i think the boy's scary and i would so go crazy if my son's like that.ok i DONT want a son like that.it'll be fucking scary.i'll kill myself one day.and thanks so much for laughing at me man.though technically i cant remember your name.MAHAHA.o my i'm such a bad friend."THE DOOR'S BUSTED"doesnt that sound familiar right?HAHA.loser la how can a glass door open up.to everyone who wants to watch the omen please dont waste your money.stupidity i still wanna watch she's the man.and trust me i'll so drag you down there with me.anyway dan GO WITH ME!!yeapp you know what i want you to go for.and please stop trying to steal my bag la.it's bad you know.HAHA.ahhhh the deadline's today.jessica is doomed

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


12:53 AM

finally i bought my skinny bitch shirt.the same shirt which paris hilton and lindsay lohan has!what total happiness.plus it cost less than expected!This Junk Food t-shirt has most recently been seen on Lindsay Lohan. When asked about the shirt Lindsay's reply was I borrowed this shirt from my friend Paris. That would be the home video star herself, Paris Hilton. This shirt can only be found at an upscale fashion boutique in L.A.i love connections.without them i bet i so would not have been able to get my lovely tee.skinny bitch.yea babyy that is just so hot.crap it would be totally hilarious if i were to wear that shirt to church.o my just check out the look and the pastor's face.utter OWNAGE.youth empire was recently featured on the new paper.some said it's good but to some it's bad.ahhhh just hope that does not affect anything.ok i'll currently just too happy about my skinny bitch shirt that honestly i just dont give a shit about anything now.yay movie with danielle and alex later.well that is HOPEFULLY nothing screws up that is.which yupp i admit yesterday was my fault alright.yupp.sorry all.i'm so getting sick of my playlist.it's getting crappy and i have no more nice songs.furthermore my dear jukebox is hardly online now.ahhh.that is just so sad man.i wonder how's his leg coming along now.hope he can start playing tennis soon!!yay a match sometime soon ya?sigh have not been playing tennis for like eons.and i think i'm so going to play like a freaking beginnier once i start again thanks man.i bet i cant even hold the racket right now.sigh everyone wants to watch the omen.HAHA.but i think its scary.dan said she'll bring a plastic bag for me.HAHA.wth man.stupidity.i need to go shopping again.one can never have enough clothes, bags and of cause SHOES.i'm such a spender.HAHA.talking about big spenders man.last night's conversation about them was hilarious.stupidity la.only chio or big spenders.HAHA like so what the hell.i need to shop seriously.anyone willing to take me on an all expenses paid trip to town NOW!!!i'm looking for everything RED.HAHA.seeyou soon slut!!!

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


12:41 AM

shite deadlines deadlines and even MORE deadlines.gotta clear all by tmr.goodness im so screwed with still 20 more to clear.dammit jessica is dead.i hate ah lians.please stop spamming on my blog as i think i know who are you.so thank you VERY much.fuck it god knows how the hell do they speak.gosh they are so going to fail their english exams big time.i need a reality check.i've been totally shagged out for the past few days.slept for like 16hours yesterday and i still fell tired.my dog's going nuts.she keeps digging her cage for god knows what reason.gosh i'm shagged.my ipod headphones are dead.needed to get new ones but damn the white ones are so fugly so i ended getting a black one instead.fuck i'm starting to hate it.note gotta buy a new set of headphones SOON before i kill myself.i'm hooked onto youtube.thanks to danielle.miss swan babyy.i fink it's a MAN.retardation.i wanna go towning AGAIN.though i'm getting sick of town but hack it it's the company that matters not anything else.yupp coffee again?i'm down!sigh.tomorrow tomorrow.i'm so dead tomorrow and it's only a day away.hope i can clear EVERYTHING by tomorrow.ok i shall be positive i WILL clear everything by tomorrow.though i'm not exactly as confident as i know i should feel.well many various comments about kosher last night.some said good some said bad.but i didnt go.HAHA.was too lazy to even step out of the house thanks to my stupid migraine.everyone's getting stressed thanks to this whole entire hoo-haa.that i heard some are going to stop too.welcome to the club man.i am so over this FOR NOW.o my why does everyone keep cancelling.i hate those who confirm and yet cancel.damn i need to collect money first next time.come on people dont disappoint me.as i'm on the verge of insanity.ahhh four more days!cant wait.

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;